I Hope You Understand...

I saw her the day before,
All I said was "hey"...
Maybe I could have changed it all,
But I didn't know what to say.

Your deep blue eyes and long brown hair,
Gone from this world for good.
I really should have said something,
To make my feelings understood.

Instead I walked past and held my head in shame,
I walked into my next class.
I thought about it long and hard,
And decided tomorrow I wouldn't walk past.

My chance slipped by along with your life,
Maybe I could have made it better...
But now I stand near the coffin and wonder,
If I said something would it even matter?

Maybe you didn't know, but I thought you were beautiful,
Maybe you just hid your own thoughts though.
I should have told you how I felt...
Instead of taking this massive blow.

You don't seem right for suicide,
It's not the person you've ever been...
I guess I was wrong about that too...
And it's too late to let my thoughts out from within.

So now I sit here and think these thoughts,
That maybe I should do it too...
After all, I'd get a second chance,
My second chance to be with you.

True love or not, it seems so right,
Or at least it does to me...
But even if I had told the truth,
There's no way you would agree.

I feel so weird inside right now,
I don't know how you could take it away...
Theres nothing thats ever that bad in life,
To not want to live another day.

I'm sorry I never told you my feelings,
And I'm more sorry you took my chance...
I wish I didn't have this on my back,
And you're life was still in my hands.

Don't you worry, I'll be there soon enough,
I'm sorry, mom and dad...
Theres only one thing I want in life...
The one thing I never had.

I want her love, I want her in my arms,
More than anyone could stand.
This is my goodbye to life,
I hope you understand...